I call baloney!

I was talking with a friend today who wanted to do something different with her hair. She was thinking strawberry blonde instead of her usual browns. I suggested maybe something red. Lol I know I am on a red trip at the moment. But anyway she has beautiful blue eyes and light skin so I think red would look awesome on her. I also suggested she mix it up a set further. Maybe grow out her hair instead of leaving it short. Add some curls. I think she would look so pretty. But she said she read some where that middle age women shouldn't have long hair that its better to have it short hair at her age. Why? When did we start listening to people? I say wear your hair how you want it. If you feel having long hair at 90 for example makes you feel beautiful and vibrant and alive then I say go for it. We live one life people. Don't stress to hard on what society says is expectable. Paint your own world. Do what makes you happy.

For all you good mama's out there

She’s a Mom

She’s a great mom.

She’s a good wife.

Her children and husband are her everything.

They are her life.

But she’s so much more than what she see’s.

She’s more than a taxi cab or a finder of lost things.

She’s more than a chef or a boxing referee.

More than an errand girl or “mom I need this please!”

But I know she wouldn’t have it any other way.
Its those little special moments that fill her day.

She’s Wonder Woman in their eyes.

A super hero that needs no disguise.

She can kiss better any wound or mend a broken heart.

She can repair anything that’s been broke apart.

And she does this every day.

She doesn’t let anything stop her or get in her way.

Just to see the smile on their faces.

To hear thank you mom and I love you.

That’s her pay.

They are what drives her to live everyday.

And that’s beautiful.

How can that be wrong?

She’s a mom.

By me ML

Little Rag Doll

Little rag doll tattered and torn.

With patches on your dress and your hair a mess.

Scars you have many.

They are easily seen.

But don’t fret dolly, your life still has meaning.

Your future is clean.

Little rag doll, no more tears.

You have shed many throughout the years.

So cast away your fears and dance into the day.

Little rag doll its time to do what you were made for.

Little rag doll, its time to live!

Its time to play!

By me M.L

What happen's in "Book Club" stay's in book club!

March 31, 2017

Its official our first Girl's Night In was a success. "Book Club" as were calling it was fun. Oh my God. I made my first alcoholic drink ever. Thanks to the Tipsy Bartender I made some Blue Pina Colada's. They were sooooo good!!! Really you have to try them.

Though next time I think I will add some Reddy Whip to the top so my cherry will hold. But we might just try another drink all together. I'm the bartender. What fun! *cheesy grin*  

Other than that we just talked and snacked it was nice. Lol very little book talk but we did manage some. Like my friend and I just finished Carter Reed 1 and 2 and Cole by Tijan. Its a Mafia series. If you love action mixed with dominant males that make your heart pound in an irresistible, body tingling, mouth watering way then you have to read these books. We are just waiting for Carter Reed 3 to be released.  

Next Friday we will hopefully have our second "Book Club" where we will have make overs, drinks and maybe some games if I can talk my friend into playing along. Lol she makes fun of my games.

But anyway it was a great night. I can't wait to do it again.

Till next time...

Hugs

How to become a more confident you!

A new me means a new attitude. Up until now I haven't been very nice to myself. In my head I've always been ugly and stupid and useless and I will never amount to anything. I was the girl with no friends and no future. But that's not true. I know I can be better and there are days I do feel pretty. But I guess it was easier to feel bad about myself so when someone hurt me it didn't sting as bad.

But that old, tiring, degrading attitude is over with. Like the old adage says, "out with the old and in with the new!"

So how can I become more confident? How can I stop believing all the negativity and start seeing some of the good qualities others see in me? Well I have to change the way I think and its not going to be easy but its doable.  

1. Tell myself good things every day. If need be right them down on post it's and put them on my mirror where I can always see them everyday.- I can tell myself; I am beautiful. I am smart. I don't have a useless bone in my body. I can be whoever I want to be.  I may be fat right now but look out because this is not a forever me.  I am more than just what people see. I can be loved. I will be loved. I am special. I am awesome!
2. Accomplish things- Big or small it doesn't matter. Just don't sit around feeling sorry for yourself. Get up. Make a list and check it off as you go throughout the day. Find something your passionate about like writing or cooking. Get into crafts. Color your world beautiful. Because you are beautiful and whatever you do, whatever you accomplish will shine through. It will put a smile on your face and give you the drive to get up in the morning and try new things. We only get one life.
3. Say goodbye to those that bring you down.- You don't need help in that department. You need to surround yourself with people that lift you up and not bring you down to their level. Those are not your friends. You deserve better.
4. Always wear a smile.- No matter how bleak my life has gotten and someone always has it worse I always try to smile. A smile gives you hope. But don't just smile for you. That old man that sits in front of the grocery store would like a smile too. Share the joy. Spread it. And maybe he will give you a smile back in return. A smile will help you stand tall even if you feeling like falling.
5. Never give up.- I can do this! We can do this. You are not alone. We can be confident. We can reach our goals and be the amazing, talented and beautiful people we were meant to be. We just got to strive for it. This is NOT impossible. Nothing is impossible until you're gone. So keeping fighting.

Till next time...

Hugs

Sleepless nights anyone?

1 Sheep
2 Sheep
3 Sheep
4 Sheep
5 Sheep.......

1000 Stupid sheep later. Nope this does NOT work!

"Oh magic 8 ball will I sleep tonight?"

*shakes*

"Haha, not going to happen!"

Well that sounds about right. Sigh...

So what helps you sleep? Chamomile tea, lavender, exercise maybe....a bat to the head?

This is my constant little problem. Whether its stress or loneliness it just doesn't happen. And the little I do manage to get I'm being chased by gangsters with big huge guns (and not the cute ones I read about mind you), or I am in the middle of the ocean being sucked into a massive black vortex, snatched from the grips of loved ones or watching people die. Who's suppose to sleep to that?

Someone please shoot me with a tranquilizer quick!

Enlighten me. What gets you to sleep? Anyone have my problem? Calling 911 here, I need help STAT!  

Top ways to figure out you're dating a douche bag

Whether its your bf, your besties bf, your mama's or aunts we have all been there. But in case you don't know the signs of a douche bag lets throw out some;

1. He beats on you- Hell no, you better break up with his butt fast. No one deserves to be abused. You deserve better than that. Don't let anyone make you feel different. Their problem not yours. If you can't get away or defend yourself call over a big strong friend. Men who beat on women tend to not want to fight a guy. Or better yet call the police. Let him room with Bubba for a while.
2. He's emotionally abusive- Whether its physical or verbal, abuse is abuse. Again you deserve better. All kinds of abuse leave scars. Its better to ditch the turd while you can. Don't let him change you. You are wonderful and beautiful just the way you are.
3. He never puts you first- His friend Billy Bob see's him more than you. He rather play with the boys than be with his girl. Big red flag! There's nothing wrong with hanging out with the guys but he should want to spend time with you more. Your not meant to be a second fiddle.
4. So you and your guy go to the movies and you're waiting for the movie to start. He goes to the bathroom and he's gone a while. So you text him to see if he's okay. He's great, he got bored so he's watching a movie in another theatre while you wait alone for his jack wagon butt. Dump him, leave him, he's sooooo not worth your time. This Casanova wanna be needs more classes.
5. He flirts with other girls in front of you-Okay what is this? What possesses someone to do this? Do they think they are God's gift to the female population? Does he really expect you to stand there while he chats it up with to much lip stick Barbie over there. And what about her? She see's you standing there. Okay not all women. Most will see him for what he is. But come on now if you see a guy with his girl and he's flirting with you, shut him down. If he were yours he would do the same to you. But hopefully his girl will do that for you.
6. He NEVER pays the bill-I'm not saying men always have to pay. As a woman I think its nice to treat your man sometimes. Especially if they work hard and they treat you right. Show your gratitude. But if Mr. Mama's Boy never wants to foot the bill then he needs to be sent back home because that's not right. Chivalry is NOT dead.
7. He says who you can be friends with- Unless the people you're hanging with are criminals who can hurt you or they are using you I say be friends with who you want. Don't let someone put you in a box. You have to be free to live and to choose for yourself. Otherwise its lonely. His insecurities should not be yours.
8. He wants to control you- I realize 7 and 8 are similar but if wants to control your life in general. Like what you eat, when you should leave the house, if you shouldn't leave the house or he doesn't want you to talk to your family. You may be together but you are no ones property. Even if your a little kinky and that's another topic all together but still you still have say over your life. Don't give that say away.  

We can't change these men. I think as women we try to make things better and when things fail we blame ourselves. But they have to be the ones to change. Only they can. If not it leads us down roads we don't need to be. A good man should take care of his woman and his family. A good man should put her first and show the world the prize he has. We deserve nothing less ladies.

I hope y'all have a good man. Take care of him. They are rare.

Till next time...

Hugs

How would you make the world a better place if you could?

I want to feed people. One hungry tummy at a time.


Ever since I was a little girl I have loved to cook. But that's only half the joy. I love to feed people. I love seeing the pleasure on someone's face when they enjoy a good meal. I love putting that smile there. I remember family get together's at my grandparents ranch. I would wake up early make a pan of potato and eggs to go with my grandma's delicious tortilla's and I would watch as my family gobbled it up. Its a good feeling to feed someone.

I guess I get this from my grandmother, my aunts and my mother. Its true when they say the kitchen is the heart of the home. Every weekend growing up we were at the ranch. The men would BBQ outside chicken, ribs, fajita's, tripa's and sausage and sometimes a nice mouth watering brisket. The women would be inside talking around the kitchen table as dishes of potato salad, Spanish rice and beans were prepared. Also and endless line of desserts awaited our taste buds. Even though there was so much food already my grandmother would still be cooking everyone's favorites as well as a mountain of tortillas and pan de campo. Those were the days. Even though so much has changed that quality has never left me.

If I am ever given the chance financially I want to open a soup kitchen and feed as many people as I can. But not just people who need it. I would also like to extend that fork and spoon to our services workers. They do so much for us and put up with so much that I think they deserve it and I wouldn't charge. Donations would be welcome because that just means I can help more people but that's it. That's what I would do to change the world at least a little bit. No one should ever be hungry.

So what would you do? What are your thoughts?

Till next time...

Hugs

What does your hair color say about you?

At the moment my hair color would probably SCREAM boring and predictable. My hair is naturally a dark brown. Though I have colored it a couple of times. I always go with my usual caramel color with blond high lights. But no more! While its pretty I am looking for a change. I want something BOLD. Something that says hey world look at me. I know longer want to be a shut in. I want to smile brightly and have the world see it.
 
I once wanted something with pink in it. I love pink. I'm definitely a girly girl however I have not reached that level of brave yet. I can just imagine the look of shock on my mom's face when I show up with pink hair. Haha that might just be worth seeing.

But no actually I really want to dye my hair red. Its bold, its beautiful, it says I am ready to take on the world. No more hiding in my room. Its time to be somebody.

So I found these pictures on Pinterest as samples of what I maybe want. Everyone says though red fades ugly. But this is an experiment right? Life is about taking chances and as long as my hair doesn't fall out I will be happy.

 

I wish my hair had voluminous curls like the girl does in the second picture. But unfortunately my hair is straight as a board. In fact curls flee from my hair as soon as they can. If it wasn't so depressing it would be comical. So what do you think? In the first picture I love how the back fades into the red. Am I saying that right? Plus I really love the shape of her BOB.

I do think the bottom color is a bit more interesting. Its beautiful and I love the black in it. It kinda makes her look tough? Is red a tough color? I want to be tough.

But those my thoughts. A new me. I can't wait!

Till next time...

Hugs

Everything can change so fast

You never think it can happen to you. How life can change so fast from one breath to the other. One minute I am laying in bed at home enjoying my time with him and the next second he's gone. Our marriage was far from perfect. We fought so much. But I loved him. I just missed the old us.

My life now has turned upside down. Things I thought I knew, people I thought who cared...everything has just been a blur of chaotic emotions. So much anger and hate when we should just come together and grieve and reminisce.

Its been about two months now since he passed and while the pain is still very much there I can breathe easier. I have a wonderful support system and I'm trying to find myself or create a new me. I started writing again. I love poetry. I love touching someone's soul with what I write. I have been playing around with different makeup looks and changing my hair color and the way I cut it. I have been eating better and working on losing weight. It all keeps me busy. Busy is good. Busy keeps my mind off the pain.

I have some amazing friends. When I was married I never really got out. I stayed holed up in my room. Life was kinda sad. But I'm getting out again. I had my first girl day a couple of weeks ago. Can you believe its been 7 years since I just hung out with another girl. It felt great to just go to the movies, do some shopping and enjoy a nice meal with lively girly conversation. It felt fantastic. I can't wait to do it again.

But anyway there's more to come I'm sure. I look forward to embracing the new possibilities even though I'm scared. This Saturday I'm going to attend a poetry reading. My first one ever. I am so excited and so nervous. I might even participate. Hence the nervousness.

Till next time.

Hugs